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I think about posting a little something every day. And then something comes up. Thanks to Lori for her late night rambling thoughts. It so reminds me of some of my own thoughts.

When I have a lucid moment I find myself playing Word Solitaire and getting better and better at it. So I still have some brain cells left. But mainly I use up my energy in the wee hours of the morning typing and administrating while I am "fresh." Then I look in at the sewing room at Ally's quilt top that is ready to actually quilt and bind. I am so looking forward to that. Progress has slowed down a bit on that.

I have been having some negative side effects of the sterroids now. In the beginning it was great to be able to pick up my feet and move on. Then the pain in the knees hit and down I sat. Then the vicodin helped immensly and up I went. Then the big muscle weakness in my legs hit and down I went. I cannot lift my foot up over a nonstandard curb or step without a rail. I did not realize this a couple days ago when I went to the post office and stepped up the curb but coul not pull my 200 pound body up and down I went. I could not get up. There was nothing to hold on to. A burly guy came along and pulled me up. I was humiliated. I could not help him. It reminded me of Mom. When she would look at a step or a curb or a bump, she knew she would not be able to maneuver it. Now I know that I have to take the low path. I have become a public nuisance.

I had a check up yesterday and we are stepping down the sterroids to see where I actually am in the process of even needing them any more. I cannot just quit them so it will take a couple weeks or so to get off them. According to the docs, the inflamation from the radiation should be reducing and so should the pressure on the nerves in my feet. We shall see.

The chemo treatment was not terrible. The first ten days were fine with no real side effects except fatigue. I can deal with that and work around it. Then the last day all hell broke loose with some very unpleasant side effects. So we are tweaking the dose on that too. Actually I can deal with those side effects better than the sterroid ones. Anyway, I am really doing okay and still getting a lot done around here and feeling useful except when I make strangers drag my fat butt off the curb.

Let's see, the good stuff. When I got home from the doc around 6:00 last night, Ben and the girls had just got here with pizza and we had a great time. Pandora made some valentines for her classmates at Enrighment and Winter made some for me and Maryanne and her teacher. They are very very creative little girls.

I think Bob is going down south this weekend for the Super Bowl. I don't even know who is playing. Whenever a hint of sports talk comes on the radio while I am in the car I switch the channel so fast I might break the knob off my radio. I hate to hear them get all excited about any stupid sport. I don't know where this intolerance came from. But then I forget and turn it back and there that one dimensional guy is telling me about the bluejackets or comets or some other team that means nothing to me. I did not realize I was so narrow minded in this area.

Well, I need to make an office run so I am going to hit the road.

This has been not so exciting with health notes and boring details. I hope this is just a warm up and exciting and fun things will be ahead.

Remember, this is a no guilt blog. Come play if and when you can. It is all good and we all come from the same loving heart.