Oh Happy Day!

Seems like not so long ago.. good time... happy day.

Just a reminder of my sweet, crazy, fun, loving and hopeful sisters.

Oh how my emotions are flowing. Thinking of you Diane and how vibrant and full of life you have been and how everything is ever changing never to be the same... so sad.

This is how I want to remember you and all of us.

I love you all so much

I just wish I could die

Besides the word "OK," the above are the only words our sister said today. It was amid tears and frustration and probably pain. In the moment the words were real and heartfelt and I couldn't help but agree and cry with her. I wish she could just peacefully pass onto whatever else there is. I H A T E seeing her like this in that little room with all the reminders of her life.
- Bob sitting in that black chair in the other room and that annoying bird hollering her stuff.

I'll miss her terribly but I want her to go peacefully - now.

My heart is so heavy

Like my other sisters, my thoughts are with our struggling sister. I wake up thinking about her and go to sleep thinking about her. We all knew that we would face this day soon, but it is almost unbearable to do so.

When I think I may never have any kind of conversation with her again - silly,serious, disrespectful, sacrilegious........ my heart breaks in a million pieces and the tears flow.

Words are not to be found at this moment. I can't imagine my life without her. It is so unfair - so, so, so unfair.

I love and cherish you my other sisters.

The Sad Searcher